cant sleep. at my lowest

Hi im back again.

i cant sleep.

i miss the times when i used to hide in my dad's shirt, blowing his tummy making the fart sound.

i miss the times where he would bring me anywhere he goes.

i miss the times where he would bring me to the movies.

i miss the times where he would bring me out to sea on a boat, then he'll get onto his cargo ship for some admin stuff. and i'll always wait for him on the boat with this uncle, & i never fail to start panicking that the boat would drift far away and will always ask the uncle to go closer to his ship.

sorry for making you guys read trash. but i just wanna convey what's on my mind right now.

i hope things get better.